loving in the war years: when it all falls apart

Posted by on Sep 7, 2016

in the middle of mourning, news came that a family member has stage four cancer. and that it had spread, far and wide. and everything just stopped. work, laughter, joy, mourning. grey overcast rolled over life and i couldn’t move. i lost a dear friend to breast cancer. a different family member was throwing up …

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loving in the war years: day eighteen

Posted by on Aug 14, 2016

grief it is something we are so rarely allowed to feel or to see or to even imagine lasts more than 2 or 3 days. i’ve studied war for over a decade now, and what shocks me, still, after all this time, are the people. 50, 60, 70 years after vietnam, korea, ww2…they still cry …

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~(re)Birthing 2016~

Posted by on Jan 2, 2016

We learn that we have no obligation to be who we were… 2015 was a very successful year for me. Not because I made more money than ever before or because had a better job or got a house or any of those traditional markers of success. In fact, since I wasn’t paid for a contract …

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the olden days: (re)thinking walking: righteous uncomfortability

Posted by on Dec 12, 2015

Background: I grew up in a very conservative city with very conservative strictly religious Mexican men being the norm. My own father was not religious, but was very very strict–and so I have always associated ‘strict’ with ‘Mexicanness.” Of course by ‘strict,’ I mean deeply conservative, extremely old fashioned, stifling rules on gender and gender …

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the olden days: thinking about porn

Posted by on Dec 11, 2015

This is an old post from my old blog that I found because somebody linked me to it on twitter. All the links to the post are dead, so I just deleted them. I am also quite embarrassed that I used ‘pron’ rather than porn, back in the olden days of blogging, we used to …

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Posted by on Sep 27, 2015

One time I saw a cat try to cross a four lane highway. He wasn’t a full fledged cat, yet. His body was still small and fluffy, but he had those long legs and huge paws that said he would be a huge cat once he was finished growing. The last thing I saw before …

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